Today I took two finals and it hailed. Not just a bit of light rain mind you, no full on pelting of frozen rain. I rescued what plants I could in the garden and prayed for the rest. It was a very long day and I was far too tired to be exhausted. I did not have the wherewith all to figure out how to turn on the dinning room lights. This should have been my first clue to the day.
This did not stop me from skrying with the good Frater and in many ways I am glad about that. After a shower for all of our sakes I was ready to go. We set up the side altars as instructed last time and changed up how we do the calls. Last time I naturally feel into a rhythm like the canters from the Jewish traditions. It involved full on rocking, a you become your own metronome. It did feel right and I just went with it. Last time I was instructed that 1 person should do it. It occurs to me now that it was because the good Frater needed to learn the rhythm of the process. I will have to work on the angelic interpretations.
Once we got through everything, then the skrying of EXARP began. I only get the slightest idea of where they are before we begin. I want the process to be skrying and not reinforcing what I know about a spirit.
At first I was concerned that I was too tired to get anything and then suddenly I got a spinning and whirling galaxy. About this time a crescent shaped moon felt like it was pressed and burned (but not in a painful way) against my forehead around my third eye. I got an image of a hat of sorts, with a crescent moon mounted to the top. It was an abstract symbol at best. This galaxy formed two external planes that intersected outside of the axis that the galaxy was spinning on. They attempted to rectify themselves. Then I got a download of characters, symbols really, in a very quick succession. I did not have time to make all of them out, but they appeared as physics symbols. I started to call for the angel and felt a presence but did not get an image. I placed my hand over his name on the tablet and grabbed my lamen, the signal seemed to clear up. (I am likening this to grabbing the rabbit ears on the TV as a kid). I asked him/them to show him/themselves and I got a forming of a shape out of a gelatinous goo. When I moved to take a closer look it evaporated. I asked again and it formed a more distinct form as I looked away. As soon as I turned to see it, again it evaporated. This was frustrating.
I asked if he/they liked the temple set up and got "Do not bother me with your ego questions!" Humm, a tad grumpy? That was not like the last one. Then I got a correction on how to pronounce his name, specifically without the pa at the end... just P. Humm again grumpy. I asked about the incense and he said yes it was fine, in a terse manner. It was as if I was bothering him. I asked what his color was and I got blue. Then I got the night sky and a blue view. I was admonished to "Always look up" and he started quoting biblical passages about the things of this world only bringing despair, but that those of heaven went on forever. I asked about his sound and got a flute, I asked if that was a sound and he said "All wind instruments belong to me." OK now we are getting somewhere. I asked if he had a symbol and got a rather sarcastic "Well have you ever seen a star?" and I got a flash of thousands of stars in the night sky. Then I got a flash of a pentagram with the upper right hand corner lit up blue. (This made no sense in my tradition, but I was explained to me by the good Frater as part of GD stuff.) He was finally getting friendlier. He started quoting about looking within and becoming one, I asked what are we going Buddhist now? He actually laughed and said something along the lines of well of course we are of them and they are of us, they just don't know it. I took that to mean that the symbol set was different but that it all boils down to the same type of stuff. I asked if my hamster was really a hamster. He actually laughed at that one. He told me "no, he is one of us (universal implication not enochian) but he just likes to play (mess) with you." I had the distinct impression that this grumpy angel was amused.
I asked about the tablet of Nalvage and got a gelatinous form and an instruction to "Ask Nalvage" again back to grumpy. I asked why we were communicating in symbols primarily and he stated that "there are many of you." I asked if he was in charge of language and he confirmed that. Then I asked "well why are there so many languages?" and he answered "because there are so many of you." I got the impression that the symbols were part of the astral communication process.
After that it started to fade and I called to him. He advised me for patience and in a very sweet and paternal way encouraged me to "sleep now" but be quiet as you will disturb him (the good Frater).
As I opened my eyes the floor started to spin as if it was going to rise up to meet me. It was everything I had not to fall out of the chair and on to the floor. After a few minutes the good Frater opened his eyes and we closed the temple.
I went first describing what I saw/heard/felt. He smiled occasionally as it is becoming apparent that our visions are overlapping and that he gets some of mine and I get some of him. We both have to interpret small bits for each other. Though it appears that we had the same impressions as far as demeanor and temperament. After we closed the temple I intended to type this up. Yet as I layed down on the couch I fell directly asleep. I know that the good Frater woke me long enough to get me to the bed, but I do not remember any of it. As the angel instructed, I slept. I do not remember dreaming, but I remember feelings of peace. It is now 5am and the skrying is still quite clear in head. Very interesting indeed.
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