The above picture is one of my favorite fractals. If you tilt your head to the right at a 90 degree angle (go ahead... I will wait...) you can make out a scarab. The geekier part of my loves fractals. By repeating a pattern and focusing on a small portion of it, you can get a new picture of the whole. Yeah, it fits my magickal paradigm to a geeky perfection.
The last two weeks have been all about physics studying and just keeping my head above water. Though I am reading a great book by Marty Klein in my nonexistent spare time called "Americas War on Sex." It is all about how our country goes out of it's way to criminalize sex. It gives a great perspective. We are in the middle of two wars and the sight of a nipple on TV is somehow the biggest offense EVER. I am all about sex positive life options. Years ago I changed my swearing from "fuck you!" to "audit you!" You should enjoy the sex, but you will never enjoy an audit.
This morning I got up at 4am (grrr) and decided to catch up on the blogging bits. So here goes :)
Speaking of magickal paradigms... I am a practicing sex magickian and an OTO member. I got into both as a smart ass comment... "If I am getting into magick it will be sex magick..." The hamster still reminds me of that from time to time. It is the correct path for me though it might not work for you. I am totally OK with that. What I am not OK with is this theory that it is one big nonstop orgy. That is saved for the good Fraters bowling and orgy league :)
In response to Von Faust's post, sorry dear brother I have never been sexually involved ( even MILDLY) with any of my magickal siblings. Despite the rumors, it is not just one big orgy on the floor and no I have never once been pressured for sex. Nope not once.
A couple of years after I had gotten on to this path, I was warned by a dear friend in all sincerity about how I was going to be abused in all sorts of ways. I just looked at her and asked "You have known me for 15 years, do you REALLY think I would tolerate that for a second?"
I am not sure where those rumors come from but I would suspect that they come from the same spot that every other magickal rumor comes from :) Those usually start off something like "I heard it from a friend of a friend..."
Though I will say that those who get into any magickal pursuits with the sole purpose of sleeping with everyone in the room, are probably in for a few shocks. I will fully support your right to have sex with any willing consenting adult(s). You just may want to examine what that will do to your ability to stand next to them at the next ritual... or perhaps the ritual 4 years from now. "Take your will and fill of love..." but you might want to consider what will happen if that goes south. Or not...
Really if all you are looking for is sex, there are much easier ways to get it. To quote my dear father "that is like buying an airplane for the peanuts."
My first mentor, whom I love and adore is living with one of his first "students". Does that mean I respect or love either of them less? Hell no. It means that is how the universe was supposed to work. And I am blissfully happy for them all.
Do I think that there are magickal predators out there who would demand either sex or money for magickal teachings? Of course there are. My question has always been who cares? Those folks are always going to exist. As a magickian and an adult you just don't deal with those folks. It is just like going to a bar. Welcome to life.
As for the good Fraters bowling and orgy league, why the hell not? If you are worshipping one of the fertility gods or goddesses with sex and that is not hidden or concealed what is the big deal?
The big deal is that many of the pagan folks are not really pagan, they just are "not" Christian. There has been a find and replace of the gods and goddesses for the religions of their fathers. The morays and taboos are all the same. I loved the look on the face of the "Wiccan high priestess" who was absolutely shocked and mortified to hear that the Great Rite was not just symbolic. The term appoploxy comes to mind. She actually stopped breathing for a bit.
So to me the trick is for sex just to be sex. It is a big deal, but it is not an all consuming sort of deal. It is a function of manifestation. Few things in my universe can raise more energy for talismanic work than sex magick. It is particularly functional and I am a goal oriented kind of gal. It is also a great deal of fun. When we forget that this whole process (life the universe and everything) is supposed to be fun and enjoyable then we are reduced to waiting for death. Audit that I say! Audit that!
Part II (hopefully soon) will be techniques for sex magick. This part will include some of the more glorious pitfalls, honest!