Last night over dinner, the good Frater commented that I did not seem to be interested in the Enochians. My blog he stated was very much just the facts. I did not have my characteristic sense of "wheeeee" infusing the space. It is because I am thinking. Occasionally, I attempt to think first and then speak. It doesn't happen often, so do not worry that this will become a habit.
While cleaning yesterday I found the ORIGINAL Lon handmade rings, table and SDA from Pantheacon. I was highly amused at that. All of the information is there. The rings are a lovely blue construction paper. It made me giggle. I had very fond memories of skrying Tex with 300 of my closest friends (well at least physically at the time.)I will have to have some sort of magickal pressing book for the original tools :)
As of late the good Frater and RO have been taken back by the potent powers to heal the world. I on the other hand have been stuck in quiet contemplation. I feel as if I am playing with Gods tinker toys. It is to say the least overwhelming. I suspect that the healing drive is somewhere in the system because I have had it too, just on a microscopic level. While I hope that we can all heal the world, first I must heal myself. Until I do that, I am in no shape to help heal anyone. So far the last couple of weeks the process of my personal universe, has been falling into shape. I have been figuring out my own personal process and have just been very quiet about :) My early years were spent "fixing and helping people", that path is not conducive to a functional me. So my path will have to be different. I have done myself a great disservice by enabling people who should learn to stand on their own. Until I can draw better lines, I need to just focus on getting my own stuff together. Trust me there is plenty, starting with finishing up my degree and the Operator certification series.
Another one of my concerns has been that someone will take my personal process and assume that is the whole of the Enochian system. As my father says about stereo instructions, "that is just another mans opinion." We get too hung on the "experts" opinion forget that we are the resident US experts. It is a universal system but the application of the forces at work are very personal and specific.
So in future posts I will try to put the impacts into words also, it is just harder for me. I am a much more introspective gal and it takes me a while to stare at the puzzle piece and see where it goes.