OK it has been a really, really long week. The term chaos evolving about sums it up. I am however doing very very well inspite of the chaos. The following is just a pondering, not any impending doom :)
I am so very grateful that my munchkin came into my life when he was two. Now that he is almost 16, I have a hard time adjusting to the changes :) I still see him as a little guy toddling around. Maybe I always will :) He is an incredibly remarkable child and I love him with all my heart. Though I feel for him. How do you rebel when one of your 3 moms is a Thelemite? I mean really where do you go with that one?
A great deal of my own mortality has been brought up at a time when I am finally starting to understand why the process works out the way it does. It doesn't mean that I always like it, but I am starting to get it. Things have come to light this week that made me understand why some of my earlier maternal plans did not materialize. The interconnected parts of my magickal path and my lack of biological kids is actually really astounding. Literally a series of miscarriages years ago lead me directly into my magickal path. Do not pass go do not collect $200. Don't get me wrong I would have loved to have had a brood by now, but I am starting to get why that was a bad idea for so very many reasons! For once it wasn't my health :) The universe just works in very strange ways...
Moons ago we were having a discussion in my math class about being turned into a diamond when you die. The above picture is just such a thing. There are companies out there that will take your cremated ashes and or hair and make you into up to like a 2 carat diamond. Bling is cool, but this has some real magickal implications. I am not entirely sure what they are at THIS PARTICULAR MOMENT, but I know that there are a lot :)
Immediately my mind goes to placing the YOU diamond in the center of a Rose Cross or other instrament of adepthood and thereby solidifying your place on Malkuth and all of the Worlds of God. Now, I am not GD nor do I make any claims to it. Yet whatever your magickal tool set consists of, I am sure that something could be adapted to make that work. As a Thelemite, I am thinking a nice gold hexagram with a rose middle and a big diamond as the center would suit me just fine. Though placing one on my own magickal symbol might make more sense. t would indeed be crystalizing my intentions and Will for all practical eternity. Now that is magickal bling.
Did I mention that it has been a long week?
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